So theirs this dude

So anyway, there's this boy I really like and I think he likes me,
But the thing is he has a girlfriend, and she's pregnant with his kid.
So I'm just crushing on him from far away, he's so cool and nice and awesome and all the gnarly things.

When I'm in the same room as him I think of what it would be like to be his girl, and how cool we would be together, a great looking couple. [yeah right but with him anyone would look good]
We flirt all the time, and he has told me he loves me and that was before he got his girlfriend pregnant, I just smiled at him and walked away.

I wish that I could be with him but I can live with just being his friend.
<3 cause he's worth it.

Agoraphobia

Agoraphobia


That's what I have, I start my happy pills tomorrow, I can't wait.
I hope it makes me not worry so much and think everyone is out to get me, I hope it would help me enough so I would be able to go out to the shops by myself.
Because right now I can't even go to the shops all alone, because I think everyone's out to get me.

Right now I'm feeling really down, like I'm worthless and that I should just end it all, but I'm not going to because I am thinking in the back of my mind "I'm going to start happy pill's tomorrow and that's the start of something new"

I am going to the doctors in 3 weeks time for a check up to see how the pills are working, and I'm waiting till there's a open up with someone [I can't remember] to see what step to take next to help me out.

I can't wait till the pills start working and I feel better about everything.

=)

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